18

T-minus 15 days

I will be eighteen, How do I feel about this? Now thats a good question. I never thought a birthday would bring such emotions. I'm only turning eighteen, so why should it be a problem? 

"officially an adult" What does that even mean? I have to pay more bills, I can go to jail, I could move out, I could go pierce my ears by myself, I can go to clubs, I can be a big kid! But do I even want all of that?

I don't know.

Being grown up is a lot harder than I even thought it was going to be, and I'm not even all the way growed up yet,  I dont want to grow up. Part of me wants to stay Seventeen Forever, cliche yet true. I still need time to be a kid. I don't want to worry about the stresses adults face, I face enough as a child.
I still want to do stupid things, make mistakes, grow, mess up, mess around, laugh, sing, dance. I want to stay naive. I definitely don't think I've done enough of that. To worried about staying alive, that living hasn't happened, and I just want to stay seventeen a little longer so I can experience life.
Is that too much to ask?

But just because I'm going to be eighteen doesnt mean I can't still be a kid, right?

lets hope so.