11/30

Time.

I'd like to invent a time machine,

and take us back to this moment.

Maybe then we'd all remember

 that we're all each other will ever have,

and scary things wouldn't seem so scary anymore.

Pretty Woman.

"I'm actually no, I'm not a planner. I wouldn't say I'm a planner.

 I would say I'm a kinda fly by the seat of my pants gal. You know moment to moment, yeah that's me.." 

-Vivian

Lately.

I haven't shown appreciation for my favorite things lately,

This needs to change immediately.

First:

Remind Bon Jovi that their music comes straight from the heavens.

Second:

Escape to my bed for days in order to finish a book about circuses, wizards, assassins, vampires, young love, old love, fairies & trolls,

 children that don't grow up, and many more wonderful things.

Third:

Take more pictures.

Fourth:

Blow my headphones out. 

Fifth:

Share some hot cocoa with my best bud.

I should be back to normal in no time. :)

Asian.

I promise, PINKY promise, I will adopt an asian baby.

Captain.

i miss you.

18

T-minus 15 days

I will be eighteen, How do I feel about this? Now thats a good question. I never thought a birthday would bring such emotions. I'm only turning eighteen, so why should it be a problem? 

"officially an adult" What does that even mean? I have to pay more bills, I can go to jail, I could move out, I could go pierce my ears by myself, I can go to clubs, I can be a big kid! But do I even want all of that?

I don't know.

Being grown up is a lot harder than I even thought it was going to be, and I'm not even all the way growed up yet,  I dont want to grow up. Part of me wants to stay Seventeen Forever, cliche yet true. I still need time to be a kid. I don't want to worry about the stresses adults face, I face enough as a child.
I still want to do stupid things, make mistakes, grow, mess up, mess around, laugh, sing, dance. I want to stay naive. I definitely don't think I've done enough of that. To worried about staying alive, that living hasn't happened, and I just want to stay seventeen a little longer so I can experience life.
Is that too much to ask?

But just because I'm going to be eighteen doesnt mean I can't still be a kid, right?

lets hope so.