NotNow.

Not Now Blink 182 Come here, please hold my hand for now Help me, I'm scared please show me how to fight this, God has a master plan And I guess I am in his demand Please save me this time I cannot run And I'll see you when this is done And now I have come to realize That you are the one who's left behind Please stay until I'm gone I'm here hold on to me I'm right here Waiting I see, a light it feels good And I'll come back soon just like you would It's useless, my name has made the list And I wish, I gave you one last kiss Please stay until I'm gone I'm here hold on to me I'm right here Waiting and take My one last breath, and don't forget That I will be right here Waiting

sometimes music is the only thing that makes sense

Worst.

Worst. Week. Ever.

I really need something good to happen.

mistake.

I made a very big mistake today,

a mistake that haunted every minute of the past 24 hours.

I woke up.

6:30 a.m.

My alarm buzzed, 

and I hit snooze.

Twice.

I should have listened to my tired achy body when it told me to stay in my cozy warm sheets

but instead I listened to my mama.

I was tardy to first period

hammered by my mistakes

yelled at for my "disobedience"

and still dealing with a tired achy body.

by ten o'clock I was ready to just disappear from reality and float into my own world 

where everything went my way.

However, the day had only just begun

and my trials were gonna throw themselves at me as hard and fast as they could.

Positivity has always been my goal attitude

so with every opportunity I tried to find light.

Though, today, the universe did not accept my efforts.

"don't be so hard on yourself"

this is something I hear quite often

Perhaps I should accept this advice,

but how do you do something you've never done before?

Eventually the sun always sets

And I always try to send my troubles with it

So maybe with some food, some sleep, and a little love

tomorrow's morning sun will bring with it a better day.